Sinthanaigal

I have so much to cherish when I think of Deepavali.... I am so delightful of having 20 years of pure joy in celebrating any festival!! Celebration starts since one week.. Different kinds of sweets and snacks.. Smells all round the house. We share it before Diwali.... Day before we collect all new dresses and keep manjal on that. Getting up early in the morning.. Just dressed in old clothes waiting for everyone to come to get dress and blessings from my ayya!!! Immediately run to change the new dress.. Showing everyone nalla iruka nalla iruka nu:) Starting together to temple..Wishing everyone... Happy deepavali!! Iniya Diwali Nalvalthukal!!!! Whatever ways we can and to how many ever people we know..  Returning home to eat the delicious breakfast..Now I feel how hard to make all this. But I never felt the tiredness in my amma and chithis face.. they were so happy to prepare all that...!!! Then comes the traditional pati mandram Solomon papaya in everyone house.. they...

What a great weekend..Enjoyed being a kid... How fast they forget their hurt and get back to their game... I dont want to come back.. குழந்தையும் தெய்வமும் குணத்தால் ஒன்று... I was enjoying every moment of it... 4 days old baby!!!.. she makes everyone at home happy and joyful with her presence... saw the Jealousy of a kid :) there is so much thirst for affection in it.. Nothing else... Where ever i went i like how the kids welcomed me with so much excitement... I am more excited.. Don't want to get that to get over soon... :( All 3 are still in my eyes.... They spread happiness with their smile & tears. They taught me how to forget whats not needed and how to remember that touched your heart..... Being with kid also means being a kid... :) I am also going to try to blog on seven days of positivity which I saw from Preeti . Thinking on which day to start..:)

I am reading so many blogs to understand how to write a blog.. From that i got to understand few things..(Learnt from other blogger ) 1... Initiate ourselves to write 2.... Be aware/ conscious on whats happening around and within you.. I just leave every little thing around me without noticing it.. Need to create that awareness.. 3... dont hesitate on what ever you need to express. This is my space and I can scribble my thoughts 4... Enjoy your own writings as you do while reading others. 5... If you want to write it down anything that struck you, immediately do it. Dont think on topics everyday and finally end up without one. 6... Language is seriously issue with me for writing. But I am ok now to pen down in a simple way...positive about it... I just wrote it for me to remember and not let me down at any time...

What a big question!!!! I am thinking whether am satisfied with what am doing now.... Is there some longing desire inside which is not fulfilled yet.. I don't know... Days going on. Am enjoying with whatever around me...Not finding the things which really make me excited.. I started to read lot of blogs which really inspire me to enjoy each and every small things in life.. Motivates me to keep going.... Inside me arises lot of questions which I know the answer. I pretend as if I don't know.. To maintain the balance. Now am thinking what balance am I talking about. Am I fooling around myself giving wrong excuses. I am blessed with so many things.. Why am I grumbling about what not good alone. Did I give the same level of importance what is good around me. Certainly not!! I didn't. There is so many things around to make myself happy... Am least bothered about myself thats the issue... I am going to write one good thing that happened everyday to me here and Sorry for a person ...

ஒரு மாறுபட்ட காலம் அது.. என்னை சுற்றி ஒரு வட்டம் இட்டு பாதுகாப்பாக என்னை வைத்து கொண்டு இருந்தேன்.. அந்த வட்டத்தை சிறிது அழிக்க உதவிய அறை. தனியாக என்னை நான் கற்பனை கூட செய்ததில்லை.... தனிமை பட்டு விடுவோமோ என்ற பயம் இருந்தது... ஆனால் அது தவறு என்று உணர்த்தினார்கள்..They are my good friends.. I dont know what they feel... It s a new school to me.. I learnt so many things which i have never thought of... என்னை புதிதாக பார்கவில்லை ..ஒரு நண்பர்களாக வே பார்த்தார்கள்... திரும்ப என்னோட உறவினர்களுடன் இருந்த மகிழ்ச்சி.. நாங்கள் ஒன்றாக உணவு உண்டு தலையணை பகிர்ந்து நீ செய் இதை நான் செய் அதை என்று சண்டை இட்டு அழகாக கழிந்த நாட்களின் ஞாபகங்கள் என் கண் பின்னே.. என்ன ஒரு தைரியம் என்ன ஒரு நம்பிக்கை அவர்களுக்குள். என்னை படிக்க தான் இறைவன் அனுப்பி வெய்த இடம் இது. இயல்பாக வாழ்க்கை சென்றது. சில நேரம் என்னை விட பெரியவர்கள் என்ற பயம் இருந்தாலும் அவை sஇரு தயக்கதிருக்கு பின் உடைந்து விடும் பெருமையுடன் நான் சொல்லி கொள்ளலாம் அங்கே இருந்த ஒரு நாள் கூட ஒரு சின்ன மன கசப்பு இருந்தது இல்லை என்று.. பல மைல் தாண்டி வந்த எ...